July 07, 2009 still going!

Hello everyone!! It's Tuesday (actually Wed. its after midnight) I'll make this a short blog because I better get to bed. Today was a good day for the diet. I had a orange medifast shake at 9:30. I am allowed 5 servings of medifast so I still had 4 more to go. I went to return my DVR after work and stopped at Best Buy before band practice. I suddenly realized that I had nothing with me to eat for supper. I knew I wouldn't be home until at least 10:30. I ended up drinking 2 Coke zero's for dinner. I know that I could have stopped for fast food, but that wasn't in my plans. The old me would have had any number of no-no's. As soon as I got home, I had a medifast oatmeal bar. I know that I have 3 more things I can eat, but its too late. At 100 calories each serving, I know that I have to eat all of them every day. I am only hurting myself if I don't. I was asked today by my co-workers what I wanted to eat for my birthday lunch. I told them to get whatever they wanted, I'll just have my shakes. They said 1 day won't hurt. I said it won't help either :-) The more days I have on these shakes, the easier it will get. If I cheat this early, I will just make up another "start date" ex. I'll start after my birthday....
In 3 days I will be 42. I keep thinking of all the years that I threw away. Not that they weren't good years, I just know they could have been happier. I am 8 years away from 50 (jeez that sounds close!!!). I would like to have at least a few happy/healthy years in my 40's. For some odd reason, I feel more focused than ever.