February 28, 2010

its now 93 days until my "surgery". Im still the same as I was when I had 100 days left. I am soon going to accept myself as I am if I cannot get on the right track. I am going to read Seans blog from day 1. That will be my inspiration.

Scott

February 22, 2010

Picture of me from the Rabid Aardvark photo shoot

January 30, 2010

Hello all. It is Monday and I have 98 days left until my "surgery". I have to be strong in these beginning days. Its going to be easy to say "I am still in the 90's I will try real hard when I hit the 80's". These early days are going to mold me into what I need to be the rest of the journey. Speaking of Journey, I have chosen the song "Don't stop believing" as my song. I know with the proper will power and eating habits and exercise, I can and will win this battle. I am going to hook up my web cam and try to make a video/audio diary as well. I'll try to learn how to post it on here even if I have to go through Youtube.

Better tomorrows
Scott

February 18, 2010

Hello all. I have been gone for awhile and won't make excuses why. All I know is I am back. I have decided to try and have my hernia surgery on June 1, 2010. That gives me 102 days to lose as much weight as I can. I need to lose 68 pounds to get to the weight that they said they wanted me at to operate. I don't know if that is reachable, but I am going to sure try. I think now that I have a date set, it will make it easier than when I said "someday". I went to see the doctor originally 28 months ago. I should have had the operation, recovered and lost another 50 pounds by now. I am right where I was 28 months ago. Actually I am 23 pounds less than I was when I originally weighed in that day in October 2007. It seems like yesterday...time sure does fly! This is the most important time in my life right now. Have the surgery, or accept myself for who I am. I am not ready to accept myself as a failure. Too many people are doubting me and I dont blame them one bit. I would be the same way if it was a friend or co-worker. I have to show them and most importantly myself that I CAN DO IT!!!!

Thanks for reading,
welcome back to those who missed me!
Scott