Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Oct 27, 2010

I am still alive! Not happy, but I am still alive. Halloween is my favorite holiday, and I am getting ready to do a DJ show tomorrow night. The Rabid Aardvarks have a few weeks off so I decided to take a few DJ shows. More to come this weekend.

Better tomorrows!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

August 22, 2010

Hello all. Ive decided to "once again" get with the program. Recently I have been feeling some pain in my knee and my feet have been swollen. I know that heat can cause this but I know that weight has more to do with it. I know that I am stronger than this. I just have to do it. I can not and will not accept myself how I am. This is not the person that I feel that I am. When I look at my reflection, I ask myself "who the hell is that??". I really hate it. I can change. Its free and its there for the taking. I have no one to blame but myself.

Just do it dammit!!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

August 21, 2010

Hello all. Tonight was the night of my 25th High School reunion. I wasn't planning on going, but I really wanted to. My band The Rabid Aardvarks had a show tonight in Port Washington, so I was happy that I had an excuse. I had originally blocked the day off because of my reunion. When the show came up, I thought "here is my excuse not to be able to go to the reunion". The last 6 months, we have all kept in touch thanks to Facebook. This would have been an awesome reunion. I know that people change. They gain weight, look older, grey hair, no hair...etc. In my mind, I was going to walk into that reunion and be the only one that has changed. I didnt care so much that I was overweight. I didnt want to have to explain my stomach to everyone all night. I was going to get a "yes..its a hernia" t-shirt to wear tonight. Funny thing..this was exactly the same thing I went through 5 years ago. I even road past the bar that was hosting our 20th reunion. I told myself that 25 would be different!! It wasnt. I am really going to have to do some deep thinking to get myself out of this mess. I just watched the video from tonight and dont even know if I want to be performing in the state that I am in.


Better tomorrows.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

July 6, 2010

Hello all. Hope you had a wonderful 4th of July weekend. Mine was extended by one day so I had a four day weekend. Went about as fast as a two day weekend...not really sure how that works.
My band The Rabid Aardvarks played both Saturday and Sunday in my hometown of New Berlin WI. I have been wanting to play this festival for about 25 years. Both days went great. The weather co-operated, my co-workers and family came out to support us, and the fireworks were pretty good too.
On Monday I went to see my friend play in his band Step-In-Out. Another friend Kurt was filling in for them on bass guitar. I even came up and played their last song with them.
This afternoon Lisa and I went to see the movie Toy Story 3. I've always liked the pixar movies, and this one didn't dissapoint. After the movie we headed over to Qdoba and we stayed until about 9:00. We discussed our weight, what choices we have, what motivates us, what we want to change...etc..etc. We both left with a new outlook on life, something different. I think we might actually do something this time.

Better tomorrows

Monday, May 31, 2010

May 31, 2010

Hello all. Happy Memorial day to all those that serve and served in the armed forces. The sacrifices they make and made remind me of the sacrifices that I have to make in order to live a better life. Tomorrow was to have been the day I was going to have my hernia surgery. Not going to happen. What happen you ask? I have nothing and no one to blame but myself. Last summer I told myseld that I wasn't going to be overweight another summer of my life. Guess what?, summer is just around the corner and I am still.....overweight. Do I want to be? Do I enjoy it? I tried to think of some pros and cons to being this weight and there are none. OK, if there is a tornado, I will be one of the last ones picked up. Thats a pro I guess.
How is this attempt going to be different you ask? I am going to try to work more routine into my day. Instead of working out and walking when I want, I have to make it part of my day. Im not that busy that I cant fit exercise into my life. Once it is routine, it will just become part of my lifestyle. As far as eating, I have to eat at different times of the day instead of my first meal happening at 4:00 or later. I get out of control at night and that is my biggest downfall. Luckily my job is physical. If I can just follow the 1500 calories that Sean Anderson suggests and work more exercise into my day, I should be ok no problem.
Like I have stated in the past, my high school reunion is in 82 days. That gives me more than enough time to make a big dent in my transformation. Would I like to be 185 pounds? Shure who wouldnt. Thanks to facebook, I have seen that I am not the only one that has changed in the last 25 years. I surely wouldnt be the only one that has gained weight. I just have it in differnt places because of my hernia. I dont want to spend the night explaining my stomach when the time could be spent talking about the band and what I have been doing these last 25 years. I ran into someone from school two weeks ago and I immediately had to tell him I have a hernia that I had to have operated on. He then proceeded to tell me that he has been cancer free for two years and that he had to have his colon removed. I guess I didnt have it as bad as him.
I am going to post pictures every Monday to show the progress that I make. I was just about to write "hope to make", but that is not allowed. I know that I can be weak, but I need to be strong.

Good things come to those with weight!!!!

How much more fun would I have had in Florida had I been thinner? I'm thinking a lot more

Sunday, May 23, 2010

May 23. 2010

Hello all. The year is half over and I am exactly where I was on Jan 1st. The second half of the year is coming up and I WILL make a difference in my life. Not just the weight loss, but with getting my loan paid off, being neater, get more sleep, buy less, sell more etc..etc..etc. I really want to know what it is like to live the life that I am meant to live....and deserve to live.

Look out world!!

Sunday, May 2, 2010

May 2, 2010

Here we go again...I feel motivated....need to get back on the horse instead of kicking it in the ass!!